I have had several difficult years. During that time I have learned to adapt to my circumstances. I have learned to "manage" my world and to a degree I have gotten use to "hard" times. Well, recently things have gotten better. They have gotten so much better that it is making me nervous. Instead of the perfect storm in my life, I am having perfect moments. Things are just falling into place. It scares me I am mentally waiting for the other "shoe to drop". I am not living in the "Moment" . I am living with the memories of my difficult times and I am having a hard time adjusting and enjoying the "good" times.
It is interesting, to me, that it is so easy to get stuck with where you have been, rather than where you are now. So I have to take a deep breathe and stop worrying about what may come and enjoy my current blessing.
Living in the Moment is not as easy as it sounds for me. It is almost like I can't trust my "Good Times" because I have gotten so use to my "Hard Times". Well I need to relax and stop fretting. I think that I will have some tea and think peaceful thoughts.
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